Update

So...I recently (a couple of weeks ago) found out that there s some serious shit going down in the same fucking state that I live in....

It's not anywhere close or anywhere that I plan on going to anytime soon, but just the fact that it's happening is...distressing atleast.

I am however glad that I founed out about it. I mean not knowing and having it just come here out of the blue? That would be horrible. It's not going on where I am, but It's too MOTHERFUCKiNG CLOSE for my liking.

I wish the best of luck of luck to the kids that are trying to deal with it...they're gunna need it.

~SJ

Stupid

I did something stupid as fuck a while back. I told my friend about Slenderman...

And the Dumbass told his current gf, who is also a friend of mine. Nothing's happened so far, mostly because they still don't think he really exsist. So, things are still quiet and uneventful...

Here's to hoping they stay that way...

Laterz

~S.J.

Nope

Still nothing going on down here...that I've heard about anyway. Still hope it doesn't either.

On a different note. Ray and Ava are planning to get put of all this after today, so they can rise their child in a stable environment. I'm glad.

Best of luck to them.

Goodbye Ray, Ava.

~SJ

Considering

I'm considering trying to forget evrything I've read and getting the FUCK away from ALL of this...but that would be running away.

I don't like running away, at all.

Besides, I'm not afraid of Slenderman anymore. I was in the begining, but not now. I haven't seen him and I don't want to. But I'm keeping my eyes and ears opened, and my music on. Just in case. Laterz

~SJ

Looked/What if?

So I looked through the family album and he wasn't there. And I was happy as HELL that he
wasn't. To tell the truth I didn't think he would be nothing EVER happens down here at all...but there's a reason for that, though I can't really tell you what it is.

Moving on...I had another thought hours after I'd finally done that.

What if it's that Slenderman isn't so much faceless, as he has no real identity...?

Honestly, it was just an errant thought. But, then I actually did think about it. Then I thought about this show I like to watch sometimes, Ghost Whisperer. One episode in particular came to mind. What happens is a family moves into the town where she the medium lives and obviously there's a ghost attcahed to them. Whens she goes to visit them, however, they don't have faces. It's a vision, of course. Later though, you find out that they don't have Identities. That's why she couldn't see their faces.

So, what if Slenderman doesn't have a face because he doesn't know who/what he really is? What if Slenderman was, at one point and time, an actually man and something happened to him? Maybe he hatred of mankind was so great it turned him into this thing that we know now?

But then I remembered something; during a conversation Lya, Matt, and Sandra were having with Slenderman he wrote: It is not the fault of the creation what the creator makes it's purpose out to be. I also remembered that when I first got into to all of this some of the stories the old ones mentioned that he did indeed have a face but it changed depending on the person he was stalking.

No face=no sense of self=no purpose. There are sprinklings of his present all through history. His power is drawn by belief, but what if his appearance and purpose are as well? That would mean that everytime the legends and stores changed so he and his purpose until, even he didn't know  what he was truly here to do.

It explains the proxies and why they wear mask. He takes away their identities, their sense of self and he changes them to fit his purpose; whatever that may be now. So they don the mask, their personalities wiped clean and their new purpose imbedded into their brains. They become the mask they wear blank, emotionless, and mindless to a certain point. You take away the mask and what's left?

A shell of their former selves.

Again just a though.

~SJ

So I've decided

I'm going to look through the old family album when I get back home. See, if he's there in background anywhere. I'm hoping he's not...

But what do I do if he is? Pfft...what can I do? Deal with it and figure out what my next move is...

I should have done it sooner. I'd thought about it, but never did it. Well, we'll see what comes of it.

~SJ

...

There aren't words for how sorry I am that things are flling apart with well everyone almost...

Damn...I have nothing else to say at the moment.

Life sucks and then you die, right? Because the only things promised to you in life are pain and death.

But people try and make the most of it anyway. You find happiness, look for love, make friends. You take the good with the bad. Tell yourself that things could always be worse, that there are other people worse off than you are, and that you should be thankful for the things you have, right?

On the outside anyway...on the inside your a seething, angry ball of hatred and rage; and there's nothing that anyone can do to stop it. Or well I am anyway...maybe that's just me though? I don't know. *sighs*

I'm glad no one is reading this...

Unh

Ok so...Scott is on the run now...dammit another person forced to leave everything behind. But he knew what he was getting into when he started...doesn't make it any less horrrible though...But me? ...I have no idea what I'm doing...okay no that's a lie...kinda. I'm living a relatively normal and boring life, while following the lives of people being hunted and chased by a guy with no face, and trying to help the only way I can by giving encouragement and what little advice I can.

What the fuck am I doing with my life? Going to college, but honestly I feel like I'd being doing more good helping some of you. I, however,  am not stupid enough to purposely draw attention to myself. Though I may or may not be targeted. Depending, of course, on if I become a pain in Slenderman's ass. I'm hoping I don't...seriously.

On a different note there's something I want to talk about. I was reading Reach's lastest post this morning and something he and Thage were talking about got me thinking. Roughly the were disscusing how they are setting things up for the White King and Queen, so when they are finally found they'll be untarnished by everything that's already been done and it got me thinking.

To every King a Queen, right?

So wouldn't it stand to reason that Slenderman would  have a Queen? And as disturbing a thought as that is, really it should be taken into account...damn. Ok, so who would the Black Queen be? Could it be a human...it's not a possiblity that can be ruled out at all. Though it couldn't be anyone like Sandra from H(a)unting...the she's too sweet and innocent. No, this human would have to be twisted in some way, full of such an amount of negative feelings that it shouldn't be possible (because as we all know he feeds off negative feelings), not actually human, or some combinating of the three...FUCK. Not to say that it isn't possible because hey, it's a big universe...and as Slenderman has shown us; anything is possible.

SO let's say she is human...to an extent. She would have to be full of hate, I mean a profound hatred that could rivial the heat of the sun. It would have to so immense that she could never truly be rid of it, only drive it back. Imagine it, all that hate just waiting under the surface caged and waiting for the chance to be released. She'd be His ultimate weapon. A never ending well of energy at his disposal, ready and waiting anytime He needed or wanted.

Fuck.

But, really to think that it could be Sandra? No...just no. She's too innocent and naive for something like that. It could be someone else though. Maybe...she's a conduit? Though, he could have already have killed her, right? He has had many of them killed throughout the years. What if she wasn't though? What if she's still alive? The one Conduit, he would actually have use for...it's not a good thought. AT ALL

*sigh* Oh well, there it is. Think about it if you want to or don't. Honestly...I really, really wish I hadn't.

~SJ

Damn

It seems like things are getting really bad for everyone doesn't it? ...damn I wish I could do something, but I can't...not physically anyway. What I can and will do is encourage all of you that fighting and running to keep going and don't give up. The road is long and filled with perill and now this new ///Thing/// has popped up...DAMN! Don't give up, don't give in, and if you go down do it fighting. Especially with this new...sicker, more dangerous version of the slenderman. If you haven't seen it be glad...you don't want to. I'm sure you've all got your hands full with the original. So don't give up and get going anyway you can. Don't give up hope. To every story an ending and to every fairytail a Hero.

Also Chester has gone after Vivi...go luck man, kick in the Ass man and believe.

~SJ